I’m going to break down these kinds of people so hopefully when the right person(s) reads this it’ll really help out. There are many of guys and girls out there don’t live from there Heart who are playing this mind game to sucker people into their life with fake charm then once they get what they want, they show you who and what they really are: Cowards, insecure, immature, weak, damaged, and followers. These people down play all things that they do not know or know how to do, they whine when you call them out, and they blame others when they make mistakes as well as blame you when they get caught. If you are a good person and a sweet person then these idiots will use the nerve to tell you that you are too sweet, too nice, and too Loving and why? Because these people live to try and reduce you down to their 3rd grade emotional level. If you are attractive then these people believe that you should stay in doors and not be seen by others because of course others will find you attractive and little ego people can’t handle stuff such as truth or facts. They live to be totally delusion, their imaginations run wild with exaggeration when they need to control or manipulate you into believing they are right and you are always wrong. They trust and love NO ONE (not even themselves) so instead of nurturing and fertilizing the people around them, they try to belittle, discourage, and control those around them with false accusations and extreme drama. Anything you share with these people (Ex: childhood stories, mistakes, ex bfs or gfs, etc…) will be used against you down the road for the next time you call them out for doing wrong in the present. They thrive off throwing the past in others faces and if they were popular 15yrs ago in hs then prepare to here about hs over and over again because it was bigger than watching the movie 300.
These people have little to no real friends or family because people can’t stand to be around them for more than an hour per every 2 months. They aren’t really funny because their jokes come from TV or a repeat of what you said a week ago. If you are an attractive good male, be prepared to be accused of be that way for some other girl even you don’t know but she made this imaginary girl up to make you feel bad or inappropriate for being rather fly to more than just her. If you are an attractive female, be prepared to be told you are fat (Doesn’t matter if you are Shakira’s twin sister and a clone LOL!!!). On behalf of these so called people I wrote a piece titled Consumption
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
CONNECTION
I'm hoping that someone will feel me on this one. Remember being a kid and not knowing anyone the first day of school and "out of nowhere" the person that you'd spent the next 10 to 25 years growing up with meets eyes with you. Right now I could be talking about someone you just got off the phone with, went out with, cried with, and experienced life with. Whether it's a friend, a spouse, or even a sibling, we all have a wonderful "connection to someone" story to tell. It could have lasted one concert or continuing as I'm writing and you are reading but the beauty is that it's real especially to those who in tune to such a rare sensation. In an attempt to artistically capture that strong sensation I wrote Past Spirit / Future Friend to describe in words what such a bond with people feels like to those who understand and to those who are inexperienced, what it can feel like. This is one of my best pieces...
Click http://www.lulu.com/browse/preview.php?fCID=441817 to read Past Spirit/Future Friend
Click http://www.lulu.com/browse/preview.php?fCID=441817 to read Past Spirit/Future Friend
Thursday, January 31, 2008
MY BROTHER'S COMIN 2 PHX!
This is the first time both since I moved to Chandler, AZ that my older brother will be paying a visit. For a couple years we had talked about him coming out but he started a family and that put things on hold. When we were kids in Chicago, my brother was a huge Lakers fan and I was a huge Bulls fan (basketball of course). Sure enuff he won a lot of bragging rights in the 1980's but after they were defeated by my Bulls, he turned to his second team of David Robinson and the Spurs and mine was the Suns. Tonight the Suns and Spurs play and let the rivarly return in full force now that we are adults. Just like the Pistons did to the Bulls in the 1990's, the Spurs have done the same to my Suns but they will fall tonight!
I'm glad he's coming (even though his 1st born and my nephew and my sis-in-law couldn't make it) and I know the Love will be at the airport and after that, it's WAR!!! I purchased tix for the game in November and couldn't wait for this day to come. I miss my bro and I wish we could hang out more but I know I have to maximixe the time we'll have together so that it's memorable and long-lasting. Because he has a family now, we can't talk as much so when we do, it's awesome. I can't wait to show him the home I've found here in AZ and jut show him around so he can learn that there a water supply here in the valley.
My other brother and his family should be here on a later flight so I look forward to seeing them also. Having the time off to spend time with family and friends for some this week's festivities will be time well spent.
I'm glad he's coming (even though his 1st born and my nephew and my sis-in-law couldn't make it) and I know the Love will be at the airport and after that, it's WAR!!! I purchased tix for the game in November and couldn't wait for this day to come. I miss my bro and I wish we could hang out more but I know I have to maximixe the time we'll have together so that it's memorable and long-lasting. Because he has a family now, we can't talk as much so when we do, it's awesome. I can't wait to show him the home I've found here in AZ and jut show him around so he can learn that there a water supply here in the valley.
My other brother and his family should be here on a later flight so I look forward to seeing them also. Having the time off to spend time with family and friends for some this week's festivities will be time well spent.
Friday, January 25, 2008
OPPOSITION
Took much time and few people to help me find,
Took more time and many people to make you lose.
Know that you can’t trace exactly what it is that keeps you down,
To search for where those difficult feelings lie is something you wouldn’t choose.
You asked to be sent a gifted child to help you better your life,
In return He sent you me...
Possessing everything you would ever want in someone special,
None of which you ever believed you could be...
So I tried to guide you on a path that leads to eternal peace,
A path that you’re not so sure you can walk...
Still crawling, too much surround sound of personal pressure,
Unable to talk...
Try to love you in ways that words can’t express,
Ways so secure that it comes with positive benefits...
I am then introduced to the love from you and your world,
One that has a variety of hidden rules and many unexplainable limits...
See in the world where I come from,
Everyone is treated as human beings and equals...
No one controls another or treats them like property,
Never intentionally trying to make past generation sequels...
In your world, because you were not given the kind of love you felt you deserve,
You would receive it from someone who had a lot to give...
Disregarding the fact that that person may need too,
While slowly trying to take away everything that made that person’s life easy to live...
Click here and it's the 7th page for the 2nd part of this excerpt
BREAKING UP
Well we all know that New Year's has come and gone and with that comes that test to see if everyone is sticking to their New Year's resolution. Lose weight, stopping smoking/drinking, vacation more, etc... One thing that happens during New Year's is the process of elmination to better one's life. I used to use the New Year to reflect and then form challenges and make vows to improve and build from the previous year. Now that I am older, those challenges and vows I committed to manifested into a way of life and now I have to manage and maintain.
That's not the case for others I've interacted with. Every New Year I have always gotten phones calls because someone got dumped right around the New Year. The person that got dumped always never saw it coming but the more everything is disected and put on the table, the more red flags showed up. So if anyone is in an abusive relationship where your "bf" of "gf" gets some twisted pleasure in making you feel small or less than valued, walk away... Make sure that you do not carry the abusers momentum ansd legacy into the next relationship so that it doesn't have a chance to grow and then when New Year's come around, you are the one who gets dumped for the same reasons you dumped. Do not let these egotistical, self - centered, emotional and moral criminals near your Heart especially if you or your Heart isn't fully developed enough to be ready for battle and fight back.
Understand something, just because you walk away doesn't mean it's over. It means let the drama and the aftermath begin. Let the flowers begin, gifts begin, being sweet begin, the manipulation begin...again. Emotional criminals are repeat offenders and cannot change or grow up into the Man or Woman we hoped for down the road. I'm a whole and complete person so I don't want no goofy ass, incomplete, glass half empty, victim, and twisted/wounded person who's too weak to get over his/her past and his/her self.
Opposites may attract momentarily but compliments are everlasting...
I have written several about this matter but I'll share with you - Opposition
That's not the case for others I've interacted with. Every New Year I have always gotten phones calls because someone got dumped right around the New Year. The person that got dumped always never saw it coming but the more everything is disected and put on the table, the more red flags showed up. So if anyone is in an abusive relationship where your "bf" of "gf" gets some twisted pleasure in making you feel small or less than valued, walk away... Make sure that you do not carry the abusers momentum ansd legacy into the next relationship so that it doesn't have a chance to grow and then when New Year's come around, you are the one who gets dumped for the same reasons you dumped. Do not let these egotistical, self - centered, emotional and moral criminals near your Heart especially if you or your Heart isn't fully developed enough to be ready for battle and fight back.
Understand something, just because you walk away doesn't mean it's over. It means let the drama and the aftermath begin. Let the flowers begin, gifts begin, being sweet begin, the manipulation begin...again. Emotional criminals are repeat offenders and cannot change or grow up into the Man or Woman we hoped for down the road. I'm a whole and complete person so I don't want no goofy ass, incomplete, glass half empty, victim, and twisted/wounded person who's too weak to get over his/her past and his/her self.
Opposites may attract momentarily but compliments are everlasting...
I have written several about this matter but I'll share with you - Opposition
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
MLK
A special man and a special day that's dear to my Heart. I have friends from all sorts of backgrounds and we've found Love for each other in 2008 no matter what when down in the early 1900's and so on. I happened on some luck the day before MLK and felt like sharing. Some Phoenix Suns tix landed in my lap for a game I don't have in my ticket package and so I went and sat behind the bench of my team as they defeated the Nets. The game was fun, sat 11 rows behind Grant Hill and a section away from Steve Nash's wife and beautiful kids. What melted my Heart the most was the tribute to Dr. King from the suns organization and most importantly I learned that these great seats I had landed me 5 rows from Bill Russell - the 11 time NBA champion for the Celtics and huge part the MLK movement. What a way to celebrate MLK and I'm proud to be one of those who understood and embraced the message that "I Have A Dream" represented.
To Dr. King & family and all the members of the civil rights moment...Thank You.
To Dr. King & family and all the members of the civil rights moment...Thank You.
WORKOUT PROGRAMS
I had someone give me their e-mail address so that I could e-mail a workout program to help get over laziness and lack of focus and motivation from starting something then stopping. Even though I'm fit and in good health, I'm not a personal trainer or nutritionist by no means. Here's my e-mail and I'll let you be the judge as to what I should have done.
"When I was younger, I got up at about 6am to meet 4 ladies at the gym b/c they said they needed some help. So instead of just putting together this workout program, I'll tell you what I shared with them. Sorry, but I don't have a workout plan that will help you get the body, endurance, or the energy you want. All I have is the drive, motive, and the will to shape myself into the best I can be whether it's physical or psychological. I'm also happy and at peace with myself which allows me to care about my well-being and make maintaining what I have NOT easy but natural and a big part of my life. Doing that makes stress, drama, or even laziness an illusion that I could never live by. I never wanted to be that person who never gave putting myself 1st and my health 1st a fair shot.
Maybe this is not what you wanted to hear but it's what I have to share. You are a big girl so you know what challenges lie in front of you should you choose to continue what you start and follow thru . You are a tall, lanky, lightly-skinned, beautiful red-headed woman (don't mean 2 offend) who has been blessed with a slender frame that doesn't need much work. Improving and building on top of what you already have has to start inside and you have to do it for you. I wish people could see what I see but in order to do that, you gotta work hard and enjoy the struggles that come your way. We all hit a wall, have bad days, things that don't go our way, that come with life's package. Being that fit or "sexy" or not as lazy person is a life commitment and is attainable if you are willing to grab it and never let go. It takes sacrifice(s)
That's my workout plan. Good Luck!!!"
"When I was younger, I got up at about 6am to meet 4 ladies at the gym b/c they said they needed some help. So instead of just putting together this workout program, I'll tell you what I shared with them. Sorry, but I don't have a workout plan that will help you get the body, endurance, or the energy you want. All I have is the drive, motive, and the will to shape myself into the best I can be whether it's physical or psychological. I'm also happy and at peace with myself which allows me to care about my well-being and make maintaining what I have NOT easy but natural and a big part of my life. Doing that makes stress, drama, or even laziness an illusion that I could never live by. I never wanted to be that person who never gave putting myself 1st and my health 1st a fair shot.
Maybe this is not what you wanted to hear but it's what I have to share. You are a big girl so you know what challenges lie in front of you should you choose to continue what you start and follow thru . You are a tall, lanky, lightly-skinned, beautiful red-headed woman (don't mean 2 offend) who has been blessed with a slender frame that doesn't need much work. Improving and building on top of what you already have has to start inside and you have to do it for you. I wish people could see what I see but in order to do that, you gotta work hard and enjoy the struggles that come your way. We all hit a wall, have bad days, things that don't go our way, that come with life's package. Being that fit or "sexy" or not as lazy person is a life commitment and is attainable if you are willing to grab it and never let go. It takes sacrifice(s)
That's my workout plan. Good Luck!!!"
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